As the insipid life crawls
The bond of joy swirls and droops
In the throes of life
The heart throbs
But the stillness of mind
Keeps the heart alive!!

Harangue

Happiness...is a feeling which we get from the mystic bond around us.In our everyday life...we gain something and lose many things.If it is a material loss..we can recoup the same.But what happens if we lose our dear and near ones..or when relation breaks?Our heart bleeds...we moan over the broken relations...Can we redeem those?sometimes we can...and we try to saddle on the torn dreams.. No one can understand our grief and pain.Human relation is a unique feeling which cannot be expressed in words nor in actions...


HEART BREAKS AND THROBS.....

Happiness and joy dwindles
Choked with emotions...
Memories of beloved draw tears from eyes
Torrents flow...through eyes...
Nothing can prevent those briny tears
Shed for the withered relations

Our melody shrinks..and trembles
And fail to utter words....

Melancholy flows-head over heel
Crumbled heart sings a dirge
With a cadence of sorrow
and a dolorous expression..
along with a collapsed rythm .

Misery of clod captures the mind
Through the corridors of dark..
the mind crawls..thinking
of the broken relation..

Walls and windows remain
as a cojuror for the elegy and torment.

Head and soul ponders over the lost...
and curse the drossy life..

Scrawler And Sorrows

I lived in my world,
In my space,
Like a free bird…
Free in my thoughts and dreams
But sorrows followed me.

I prattled and smiled,
Laughed and clapped,
Romped to the rhapsody,
Still.. never free from sorrow.

I ate and slept,
Dressed, waved & strolled,
Wished ....I could be..
Free from sorrow.

I opened my eyes..
And gazed....
Saw the world around...
Began to think..
At last I forgot the sorrow in me.

Scrawler In Thoughts...

I am a scrawler in thoughts,

A scribbler in letterIs,

Thinking of the future,

Lives in the past,

Trusts the tomorrow,

And loses the present.

Once for all I realize

How true the quote is

“Time and tide waits for none”

Whenever I take pen to write,
Unknowingly my pen
Draws a portrait of yours….
I donno why?

When I saw the world of paradoxes…
My heart was echoed with your words.
You taught me only the real world..
But I fathomed reality is out of reach.

You told me to smile and laugh..
But life is not about smiles alone
I grasped the real life in tears
and it tutored me the reality.

You taught me to read and write,
You gave me talks on life.
Each day was a life for me
I drew out many things beyond
Finally I agnised life is
about living and survival

Notes To My Mama...

Today is my Momma's day...the day she left her loved ones....its been a decade .....On this day.....all that i have is just a few lines...Notes to my Ma...through which i wish to pay tribute..and as i write this note, a mixed feeling springs up....the feeling of a motherless child,dashing hopes of a friend and the pride of a fearless woman...A decade back,death took her away .....but for me, she is immortal.!...and i hold her tightly to my heart...coz..She is so special...One in a million,A jewel in the Crown...She was a wonderful Woman Indeed.!

Tall and teen tho
I was a toddler at heart
Wailed like a child
Who lost the way,
and felt alone in the crowd.
Hoped for a new dawn in my life…
But all I got was dusk and dark
Caught in the midst of clouds and thorns of life
Tears spoke my feelings
Silence spoke my mind
Yearned for a sunshine..until I realized that
the rays… were beyond dreams…
Your treasured memories were my constant companion ,
Which lead me in those clouds.
As the pages of life turned one by one,
I grew stronger..from a timid girl to a fearless woman..
And Sooner I found the lost glee.
When the pain of labour embraced me,
your memories were the balm.
But no balm can heal the wound of a
A motherless child..
Time flies high
World changes
But my love for you is eternal.....

My Hidden Feelings

The dawn chorus awoken me
With your thoughts.
Those thoughts spilled hopes
In my benumbed mind.
Morning breeze carried
The messages sent by you.
Though u were far away
U were near and dear to me.

Each day passed with
Fondling your memories.
Inhaled the fragrance of your love
Those actions kept me happy
It made me smile....
But i wept thinking of you.......

When i was down
I felt isolated from the crowd
And became oblivious.
Slowly solitude captured my mind
But i pretended to be happy.

The agonies made my heart
Heavy with unbearable pain.
I sobbed.....
I was in need of you.....
I craved........ for your love and care
I felt like lying........
On your lap.....
And broken down realising
That u will never come back to me.

I donno where you are
But i can smell your presence around me
Where ever you are
Kindly shower your blessings on me
And spread the light in my life
And make the path visible for me.
I implore you
To remain as a beacon in my life
As my journey is about to begin
Towards a new direction
I wish i should reach
The meaningful destination.

My life began from you
You will continue to remain forever
In my breath,words and feelings
And i cannot erase your thoughts from my mind.

Whatever i do
Iam doing it for you
As you are my dream
And your dreams are my mission

Mommy&Me

When i was a child
i knew her only as my mom
as i stepped into my teen
she turned as my friend

A Friend,
with whom i shared moments of joy and sorrow
A Friend
with whom i shared my thoughts, words and feelings

A Friend,
whom i admired and adored with pride
who stood by me
in all my endeavour

Neither she showed gestures of love
nor expressed any emotions
but i found the same in her
eyes and actions

She taught me the virtues
and showered the freedom on me
always walked with me
with inspiring thoughts and stories

She opened up my mind
which was filled with fear
which made me to think
about ambitions and aspirations

Whenever i failed
her encouraging words
made me smile and confident
to accomplish my dreams and goals

As months and years passed
the bond of friendship grew stronger
and a feeling of pride emerged in my mind
whenever i thought of her

When she began to dream
nature came in it's way
with a dreadful disease
she was pushed in to bed

Her last phase was
Flooded with sufferings
Still she stood valorous
Without any signs of despair

Death took her away from me,leaving me alone
still she lives in my heart
like a lamp which shows light in darkness
and gives me hope and courage when iam down

As her thoughts comes to my mind
my eyes get filled with tears
i wish she were here
but destiny has choosen something else for me...................

Yes,I fulfilled that promise!! Months back,i gave an assurance to my friend,that sooner or later i would resume blogging in a new space- Daugther's diary...Today i fulfilled the promise..I donno whether he remember ...but i hope he will read this note.